Review: Eliza and Her Monsters | Eliza’s Monsters or Our’s?

Title: Eliza and Her Monsters

Author: Francesca Zappia

Publisher: HarperCollins

Publication Date: May 30, 2017

Genre: Young Adult, Mental Illness

Rating: 5 Stars

 

“There is a small monster in my brain that controls my doubt. The doubt itself is a stupid thing, without sense or feeling, blind and straining at the end of a long chain. The monster though, is smart. It’s always watching, and when I am completely sure of myself, it unchains the doubt and it lets it run wild. Even when I know it’s coming, I can’t stop it.”

Dear fellow Babblers,

I wasn’t planning on writing a review of Eliza and Her Monsters, given that it’s been done already like over and over and over again. However, I hope my opinion and thoughts are at least a little interesting. Like everyone whom I talked to about this book, I love loved LOVED it. I read this a little over a week ago and my heart is still filled with all the feelings and thoughts I got when reading. That’s really how much it affected me. It’s changed my perceptions of love, mental illness, and even family relationships. I’m blown away by how a books, especially Young Adult, seem to have this invisible pixie dust sprinkled on them, giving them capability of entering our hearts and cause it to burst with emotion – not even real life has that affect on me so the fact that this book did just stands as proof to how enchanting books really are. This book is a planetarium of themes, plot twists, relatable characters and evocative words. Everything about this book is crisp, original and touching. Read on if you wish but be aware that this review, based on what you consider a spoiler, just may contain them. 

Goodreads Review:

Her story is a phenomenon. Her life is a disaster.

In the real world, Eliza Mirk is shy, weird, and friendless. Online, she’s LadyConstellation, the anonymous creator of the wildly popular webcomic Monstrous Sea. Eliza can’t imagine enjoying the real world as much as she loves the online one, and she has no desire to try.

Then Wallace Warland, Monstrous Sea’s biggest fanfiction writer, transfers to her school. Wallace thinks Eliza is just another fan, and as he draws her out of her shell, she begins to wonder if a life offline might be worthwhile.

But when Eliza’s secret is accidentally shared with the world, everything she’s built—her story, her relationship with Wallace, and even her sanity—begins to fall apart.

Babble:

Eliza Mirk is caught between two worlds. In the real world she is an introvert attending high school in a small town. No real life friends. No real life wishes. No real life expectations. In Eliza’s world, or the one she creates for herself in the online space, she is LadyConstellation, the infamous character behind the webcomic, Monstrous Sea. In this new digital universe where physical contact and speaking face-to-face is no longer of vital importance, Eliza has fans, is popular, and chats, or IM’s all the time. She has two best friends here, neither of whom she can give a face to. There’s Emma from California who is a feisty 14-year-old who’s brains earned her a spot in college early, but not without a few mocking remarks from professor. And then there’s Matt, a 22-year-old living in Canada whose typical day consists of video chatting with his “model” girlfriend. Emma and Matt are not just Eliza’s buddies; they’re also her psychics. They keep Eliza’s identity safe from discovery: LadyConstellation cannot be connected to Eliza; that’s the sole objective.

Online. This is where Eliza feels most herself, the most comfortable. Away from the sun and chirping voices outside and inside her room with internet connection and her sketchpad she is free and unafraid. Eliza’s been working on Monstrous Sea all through high school now and it’s become one of the most popular trends worldwide to the point there are forums, fan clubs, and even merchandise for fans to invest in, giving Eliza enough money to perhaps pay her way through college without her family’s support.

Up to this point everything seems to be going just as it should. Eliza does the bare minimum academically, sits by herself at lunch with rounds of greasy French fries and her sketchpad, comes home and talks as little as possible to her perky parents and scrawny brothers, spends non-school hours up in her room with the door closed, phone and laptop in front of her and an array of drawing materials spread around her. She does what she does for Monstrous Sea because it is her escape from the world she is unsatisfied with and feels out of place within. Here she can create and bring to life the monsters that live in her mind. People care about Eliza, or more, LadyConstellation here – her thoughts, opinions, ideas. She’s not along and fans wait in anticipation for her arrival on the forums and the slightest change of schedule throws their online worlds topsy turvy.

This is life until Wallace, the quiet new boy at school. Eliza’s homeroom teacher basically sets them up and Eliza’s steady routine from here on out is no longer. Despite her teacher’s request that Eliza make Wallace feel welcome, she keeps her distance and does not mutter a word. The incident she finds herself in only a few days later changes all this and weaves Wallace and Eliza’s life together.

Wallace, as big and intimidating as he is (the guy looks like a pro football player) is found sitting on the steps in front of school one day, probably waiting for his ride. He’s intently writing in some notebook, but from afar, Eliza can’t tell what. That’s when two high school jocks come along and decide they want to read what Wallace is writing and because they are “so popular” they can just snatch it from Wallace. Eliza sees whats happening and bundles up the courage to stride straight up to the scene and demand the bullies to give Wallace his pages back. It’s already unexpected and rather surprising that Eliza would get involved to begin with but now the boys, who basically tease Eliza on a daily basis go after her. They snatch her sketchbook from her which has numerous sketches she’s working on for the next few pages of Monstrous Sea. They can’t know she is LadyConstellation. They just can’t. The boys see and, impressed, toss it back and forth between one another. Finally Wallace helps her get her sketchbook back, but not without giving some of her sketches a look as well.

Wallace writes Eliza a note asking her if she’s a fan artist of Monstrous Sea. She immediately nods in the affirmative. Likewise, Wallace, Eliza quickly finds out, is a fan writer of it. This is how their relationship takes off.

Wallace and Eliza begin exchanging more notes in class, sit together silently at lunch, bonding over the mere fact they are both “fans” of the popular webcomic. Wallace rarely speaks but when he does, his voice is low and musky, which suits Eliza well. As their friendship grows it becomes increasingly difficult to keep her “fan” exterior. To make things even more complicated Wallace is the writer behind the most popular fan writing on the forum, Rainmaker. Why is this surprising and leads one to entertain the possibility of fate? LadyConstellation and Rainmaker have been “flirting” lately. You know. The winky faces. Clever remarks. Double-meaning sentences. Eliza is rightly surprised when she finds out and this becomes even more difficult for her, but Emma and Mike are always there to secure her disguise. So what’s to worry about, right?

Wrong.

This book is extremely complex in the fact that there’s a lot going on. Not plot-wise, but more in terms of characters. It’s not apparent at first that Eliza has a mental illness. To me, she just seemed like an awkward introvert who has more fun alone than with people, no harm in that. However, as the story progresses, there are multiple instances where Eliza’s thoughts and internal conflicts become increasingly disturbing. One example is the days following her identity being revealed in the town newspaper and Wallace’s reluctance to forgive her. She is so close to ending her life and everything in her world just stops. She fights back and forth with the monsters in her mind, unsure of what would be best, or at least, easier and less painful in the long run for those around her. All of her thoughts are laid out and rawly illustrated. I felt like I was there, experiencing all this heartbreak right there with Eliza, as Eliza herself.

I liked Wallace, well at least I could tolerate him. But then his response to Eliza after the newspaper article? H quickly made his way to my list of YA Characters I Detest. His reaction and treatment of Eliza, like she was the holder of his future was just cold and so iresponsible. He knows Eliza. It’s obvious by now that she has a mental illness. And what does he do? Put himself and Monstrous Sea first. If Eliza does not suck it up and finish the comic, his hope for securing a book contract is finished. Eliza struggles. She struggles a lot so it’s really understandable why she would eventually run into writers, or artists block. But of course Wallace doesn’t care. That just got me so upset, it was hard for me to even keep reading after that (I did continue though, of course). I wanted so badly just to walk right through the pages and help Eliza out of her mind and those around her who completely lack enough sensitivity to truly understand her, including her go-go parents.

In terms of writing style I could not ask for more. Zapia’s words are affecting and dense. There was not a moment while reading that I did not feel something. My heart jolted, felt wrenched, thumped, slowed down, broke. She gives one of the most realistic, non romanticized panoramas of suicidal depression and anxiety in a way that most readers can, in one way or another, find themselves relating to Eliza. I feel as though we all have a little Eliza in us, especially with the spurt of technology and digital media nowadays. Sometimes its just easier and less stressful to converse through a phone than in person. There’s no chance for an introvert to be seen as an introvert in the computer space. A reader cannot detect depression or anxiety just by reading a comic, unless its mentioned, of course. We all know what it’s like and have had our own experiences with technology, that’s why it’s become such a huge “thing” and the older generation who grew up without it simply shake their heads in disbelief, struggling to understand. The internet and one’s home is a place of escape, mental release, protection from harm. This is Eliza, but this is also us, at least I know it’s me in a way.

As I already mentioned, I read this book over a week ago, and here I am writing this post and thinking of Eliza’s life. This book has had a powerful hold on me and I know I will continue to hold it’s magnificence in my heart for a long time coming. There were sobs, laughs, groaning coming from me as I read and though I turned the last page, closed the book, and returned it to my shelf, will continue to guard it’s words and messages in my conscious. Eliza and Her Monsters is not a YA on love and teenage struggle – it is so much more. Project the story onto yourself and watch how your life and just your world will become shaken, dismantled, and reformed.

Yours Truly, 

(Book image credits go to Goodreads)

19 thoughts on “Review: Eliza and Her Monsters | Eliza’s Monsters or Our’s?

  1. I totally agree with you about Wallace- after what he did at the end I was not a fan of his at all. You really captured the essence of this book in your review, it’s one of the best I’ve seen on this book!

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  2. This sounds amazing. I actually have her other book Made You Up on my shelf that I have yet to read. I planned to read it before this one, but the more I see of this, the more I’m tempted to buy it and devour it first. I loved your review of this one and it’s easy to see that it had a tremendous impact on you. Great review!

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